honestly im disappointed and rather frustrated now.. even if i say im okay.. maybe to her its just a phone call, but to me its more.. i feel like a kid now, ranting bout rubbish.. maybe it really is rubbish..

why am i risking so much to be her fren? do i have anything to gain at all? im willing to risk all, cus i know i have so much to gainn from having her as a fren.. and i hope we can be gd frens, no matter how bleak the chances look to me now.. but no matter wad i say, id still persist, unless she tells me im irritating or annoying.. once she does, id disappear for good from her life..

knowing her had been one of the most humbling experiences ive had, and it continues to be.. ive never been dao'ed and suanned so much over the phone, sms and msn before.. but i will persist..

dont think she will read this, and i hope she doesnt.. and for the rest of you reading this, although im pretty damn sure you have no idea who im talking about, please support and help me in this battle.. cus shes Bee.. =)